When I started this blog, my intention was to write a post every week or so. Obviously, that is not happening, but I am learning to be okay with that!
Yesterday was two weeks of non-stop muscle spasms that continually hold my shoulder out of socket and create horrible pain. Ehlers Danlos Syndrome has completly changed my perspective in so many ways. When my body is constantly changing and in many ways, falling apart, it is hard to have hope. I want to be hopeful and fight, but my body keeps disappointing me. Some days I wonder how to keep hoping.
A couple weeks ago, the Lord blessed us with some incredibly cute and needy blessings!
These guys have brought us so much joy lately! I am absolutely in love with them! I go out to feed them at six every morning, right when the sun is rising. I usually stay a little bit later to watch the sun rise. It is absolutely stunning. What a great reminder of God’s sovereignty and goodness.
As humans, our world pretty much revolves around hope. Think about it. When you go to bed at night, you hope for another day when you wake up. When you wake up, you search the fridge in hope of something for breakfast (or if your like me, you need at least a good fifteen minuets to wake up first!). You spend a long day at work in hope of earning money. You go back to your house in hope of your home, family, and rest. But we need an ultimate source of hope. Something that keeps us going. A reason to get up in the morning.
Each morning as I watch that sun rise and remember its Creator, I feel hopeful. The other day as I watched the sun set, I was convicted of something. I questioned myself and thought, “What am I hoping in?” I keep placing my hope in the things of this world. As humans, our hearts long for hope and we place our hope in something all the time, whether we realize it or not. For me, I was placing too much hope in my health and not in the Lord. Because I placed too much hope in my health, I was continually disappointed. I hoped too much in my health and each time I was let down, it was harder to hope again.
I was continually let down because I was hoping too much in my health. I was hoping in the feeble things of this world instead of the true Source of Hope. Romans 15:13 calls the Lord the “the God of hope.” Scripture speaks about hope often, saying “Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.” And, “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” It speaks of the “living hope.” One of my favorites is Isaiah 40:31 which says, “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” With my body falling apart, I feel so far from soaring on wings like eagles, and my body could not carry me if I tried to run. I am so weary. I am so weak. But what if this is not meaning physical running? When we hope in the Lord, He gives us strength. His strength is so much greater than anything our tiny minds could ever imagine! When we hope in the Lord, he gives us wings like eagles, though not physically, He makes our spirit soar. When I hope in the Lord, He completly changes my perspective. I can see so much clearer. His hope gives us wings like eagles when all else fails. His hope gives us endurance to run when we are weary, it gives us new vigor.
Hoping in the Lord changes my perspective because when I hope in Him, I cannot be disappointed. He is the God of Hope. Romans 5:5 says, “and hope does not disappoint.” God does not disappoint when we hope in Him. Hoping in the things of this world will disappoint time and time again because they were not made to satisfy. Only He can do that. Satan wants to distract us, to make us hope in the vanity of the world, but it will always disappoint, it will always leave us longing for more, for something deeper, something greater. So, I am reminded after being disappointed that He is the Living Hope. Let’s hope in the Lord because He will not disappoint!